keeping you in my prayers

Can't believe that papa has left us for three weeks. It feels like he is still here. But the truth is, I can't see, hold, touch and talk to him anymore. I feel he just suddenly disappeared in this world. Cheng asked me to video-call or whatsapp him when I miss him. He hasn't got the idea that my papa is gone forever that the only thing I can do now is to keep him in my prayers. I'm not a religious person but I pray a lot for him- to go to a better place because life is full of sorrows. Today, we are still mourning the pain of losing him. So much that no words can describe the pain we are facing. Since I was one of those who cried the most during his wake and funeral, my family asked Xuan and Cheng if mummy is still crying. And Xuan told them, 大便也在哭。I think my sons are trying to “drop my water face”. But believe me, I’ll be alright after this.