Finally a closure

Yesterday, we were at gynae's place to update on my progress of miscarriage. He was shocked upon my slight bleeding for a few days and thought the tissues might come out these days. But, based on his experience where I was already at my week 12, he was also confident that it wouldn't happen completely, although naturally. Trying to help me to avoid going to the ER during the weekend where cost is a concern and it could be unnecessary, he proposed me to be admitted yesterday. We were caught unprepared. I have always thought to have the procedure done tomorrow. To my mind, I was hoping for it to happen naturally and completely. Failing which, I would still have to opt for the D&C. I trust my dr's judgement and experience, so hubby and I agreed to be admitted at 12 noon yesterday. I texted my bro and sis if they could help me to babysit. Both agreed and my sis came to pick the kiddos at the hospital at 12. At time like this, I'm forever grateful that I have a very strong family support to help me. I could be selfish to leave my kids with them, but I know my kids are in good hands and overjoyed to follow their uncles and aunties. My hubby will not worry about the kids too.

Everything happened at the hospital was a history now. I knocked out after a few minutes and did not realize anything that went on. We saw the tissues which was put in a container. He, or maybe the blood clot is quite big already. The sad moment has passed since I have spotting one month ago. I was probably ready for this to come. But I must be grateful that he chose to leave when he wasn't ready to survive, despite I first heard his heartbeat at week 6. There was a soul inside that we were almost fated to be one family, but he couldn't make it through. We wish him to come back when he is ready and strong. I have been using HE because my mother instinct told me it's a boy. I will forever not know his gender. I hope with this closure, everyone will find peace in it. We are hoping to see his comeback one day if we are blessed enough to have one.