Mummy got cheated...

This morning, few minutes before my alarm rang at 6:30am, Xuan woke up and asked for milk. He has always been wanting to latch. I patted him, he moved and climbed to me. He was lying on my chest with his fingers on my belly button. He mumbled, "mummy, nen-nen... mummy nen-nen..." I tried my best not to allow him to lift my pajamas. He moved his hands and touched my bcg scar. He hasn't fallen asleep yet, I froze, trying not to wake him up. Few minutes later, he was sleeping so I moved him aside. I turned to Cheng who was on my right. I nursed him. I thought he was latching on me very well, then I heard "clack, clack, clack..." The next thing I took a look at him, he was sucking his finger or maybe thumb, with my nipple in his mouth. "Good boy, my dear! You are not hungry at all and you are just suckling for fun." So, that was me! Mummy got tricked by my sons. Xuan did this to me when he was at this age too, pretending to nurse but sucking his thumb. I always have very little or nearly none space to turn in my bed. My kids smell me to sleep. I turned and looked at my hubby who was also in the same bed. He has a huge space to toss and turn, maybe he could do a somersault too. I so so so envy him... Some days when I'm nursing both of them, he will say, "I wish I could help you, but sorry, I couldn't." There and then, I feel like strangling him.